Waiting Sucks... Literally

Im waiting for a few things at this very moment in time... the first and most utterly important one is that bear arrives this afternoon.
This means im counting down the next 37 minutes until I walk out my office door, meet him, crawl in his lap and possibly cry for close to an hour. Ive been saving tears just for him... then i might lick his face and get him to tell me about his life that is a fuck load more interesting then mine at the moment.
Drinking in bed doesnt count as interesting does it?
Shitcunts!

Second would refer directly to the title of my post... Waiting Sucks... so like at least 3/4 of the people i know true blood season 3 is starting and y'all are going into a small frenzy about the possibilies.
Im really excited about this but the watching something week by week is boring to me... waiting is boring to me, and what happens when they miss a week, seriously, it means life ending circumstances...
Perhaps im being dramatic.
I dont think so.

Oh yeah and then third thing im waiting for is to dye my hair another colour... heaps of cunts decided to go red so im jumping off that particular boat only to be presented with two options, if anyone actually reads this rubbish VOTE!




I dont have a forth nor do i look like either of the women above but just pretend!

e e cummings

i like my body when it is with your
body. It is so quite a new thing.
Muscles better and nerves more.
i like your body. i like what it does,
i like its hows. i like to feel the spine
of your body and its bones, and the trembling
-firm-smooth ness and which i will
again and again and again
kiss, i like kissing this and that of you,
i like,, slowly stroking the, shocking fuzz
of your electric fur, and what-is-it comes
over parting flesh . . . . And eyes big Love-crumbs,

and possibly i like the thrill

of under me you quite so new
ee cummings


I have this extremely unrealistic view of what love is meant to be, apparently im setting myself up for failure.
There are worse things in the world right?

Whats the fun in being normal...

Getting older has bought to the forefront all the idiosyncrasies I thought I would grow out of... except they're getting worse, and all of the traits I prided myself on are becoming less and less.

I've become less outgoing, charming, intelligent and more awkward, intolerant, sarcastic. Did I not complete some part of my young adult years to satisfaction therefore these traits have been taken away and replaced with the poor cousin? Since I have decided that this bothers me somewhat I've been trying to decifer where these traits come from... now Astrology both western and chinese aren't incredibly accurate on the internet but this is what im going with, i dont care what you think is better, i really fucking dont.

I found the following that I think applies somewhat or a whole lot;

Aquarius:

"Aquarians are more "head" than "heart" people and may be considered cold or detached at times by those closest to them. Indeed, though they have many acquaintances, Aquarians only have a handful of very close friends and confidants, choosing to remain independent and free of the obligations inherent in close relationships. When they do form a close bond, they are among the most loyal in the zodiac, but will likely always seem a bit unemotional and distant, a characteristic that more emotional signs may find mildly annoying to completely intolerable."

Meaning: People think im a stuck-up wanker for the most part but the people im closest too actually realise im only a stuck-up wanker 70% of the time

"Aquarius in the workplace is the one with an office decorated with his own inventions. He is a thinker more than a doer, and will tinker with everything until he finds a better way. He does things unconventionally, to the consternation of his more traditional bosses, but he is well-liked in the workplace and treats everyone the same, from executive to mail room."

Meaning: Easily distracted, using any extra time when meant to be working to think up ideas that will never come off paper no matter how amazing they are, treats everyone the same because caring about your status within the company is boring.

"If you have found a romantic partner in an Aquarius, you have found what appears on the surface to be a compassionate, charming, loving partner indeed, but as time goes on, you may notice a marked lack of emotional depth."

Meaning: Terrible in relationships, marriage, dating and/or anything else that relates to that.

So apparently I am;
Friendly and humanitarian
Honest and loyal
Original and inventive
Independent and intellectual

But also;
Intractable and contrary
Perverse and unpredictable
Unemotional and detached

Next i'll do chinese... im the year of the rat, apparently we're amaze

Transferable Obsessions...

Being a little flighty in general means my loyalties are extremely transferable when it comes to certain thing... anyone that knows me knows this, one day i absolutely live for something and the next it makes me want to be violently ill.

For 6 months last year I ate egg and lettuce sandwiches, they could ONLY be from the 7-11 (Mmmm nutricious) any others didnt compare... The best thing about this one was that I hate egg's, the smell, the texture, even mostly the taste unless they are soft boiled and have tin soldiers next to them.
I didnt realise how much I contradict myself until recently but im going to look at this as a positive rather than a negative.

Right now food isnt as much as a focus as wine has been... going through a break-up brings out my alcoholic tendancies and food takes a back seat, only really coming into play when Im starving and/or need to sober up.

Whilst drinking wine in bed I have had a chance to discover a few more obsessions of the veiwing, drinking and listening variety... they're below.
Y'all probably dont like them, thats ok... i dont like you.

Sons of Anarchy


To be more specific, Jax from Sons of Anarchy... dreamy


Red Wine for winter times


Drinking wine in bed


Bluegrass/Blues


Goddesses and Symbolism
Im trying make decisions about more tattoo's and i keep finding more and more that I want to use




Thats all.

this isnt about food...

of the late i havent really had much time to care about / think about / eat food... unless of course its crispy pork (which goes without saying that its the king among foods, right phang?)

So this food blog isnt really working for me is it?
Something that has been taking up a whole lot of my time has been shitcunt dramas, do y'all know how much i hate shitcunt drama's?

My solution to this is time out's: everyone is going to have a few moments on time out! Just like school again... Yay for you. Not so yay for you is that they aren't going to be in comfortable places.
Im thinking on top of monkey bars, in my mothers recycling bin (there are always a lot of bottles in there), next to that stupid statue on the swan river.
Dont make me think of more.

Why dont adults come up with more solutions like this? simple, effective and utterly humiliating (if its not humiliating we'll think of something worse)
Perhaps if things like this actually exsisted i wouldnt take my anger out on alcohol, small children and doors, probably in that order.

Bleh!