Whats the fun in being normal...

Getting older has bought to the forefront all the idiosyncrasies I thought I would grow out of... except they're getting worse, and all of the traits I prided myself on are becoming less and less.

I've become less outgoing, charming, intelligent and more awkward, intolerant, sarcastic. Did I not complete some part of my young adult years to satisfaction therefore these traits have been taken away and replaced with the poor cousin? Since I have decided that this bothers me somewhat I've been trying to decifer where these traits come from... now Astrology both western and chinese aren't incredibly accurate on the internet but this is what im going with, i dont care what you think is better, i really fucking dont.

I found the following that I think applies somewhat or a whole lot;

Aquarius:

"Aquarians are more "head" than "heart" people and may be considered cold or detached at times by those closest to them. Indeed, though they have many acquaintances, Aquarians only have a handful of very close friends and confidants, choosing to remain independent and free of the obligations inherent in close relationships. When they do form a close bond, they are among the most loyal in the zodiac, but will likely always seem a bit unemotional and distant, a characteristic that more emotional signs may find mildly annoying to completely intolerable."

Meaning: People think im a stuck-up wanker for the most part but the people im closest too actually realise im only a stuck-up wanker 70% of the time

"Aquarius in the workplace is the one with an office decorated with his own inventions. He is a thinker more than a doer, and will tinker with everything until he finds a better way. He does things unconventionally, to the consternation of his more traditional bosses, but he is well-liked in the workplace and treats everyone the same, from executive to mail room."

Meaning: Easily distracted, using any extra time when meant to be working to think up ideas that will never come off paper no matter how amazing they are, treats everyone the same because caring about your status within the company is boring.

"If you have found a romantic partner in an Aquarius, you have found what appears on the surface to be a compassionate, charming, loving partner indeed, but as time goes on, you may notice a marked lack of emotional depth."

Meaning: Terrible in relationships, marriage, dating and/or anything else that relates to that.

So apparently I am;
Friendly and humanitarian
Honest and loyal
Original and inventive
Independent and intellectual

But also;
Intractable and contrary
Perverse and unpredictable
Unemotional and detached

Next i'll do chinese... im the year of the rat, apparently we're amaze